I never seem to write on here any more. I noticed that Josh made himself a meme so I asked him ( omonk ) to make me a meme. Apparently he thought 10 questions was enough. So, here goes...


MEME of DOOM

1.- Do “the Holidays” make you happy or depress you? Why? Neither. They are just stressful times in the year. Money to be spent, time to stretch, and people to please. Maybe now that I am an adult, all the 'magic' is gone...I don't know.

2.- What’s your favorite holiday memory from childhood? Probably the time that I got a bike for Christmas. My parents had hidden it in the garage and told me to go turn the water heater off. I didn't know why, but I went to do it. I swear I walked right past the bike...even moved it out of my way and didn't pay any attention to it. I turned off the water heater and came back inside. I am so blonde.

3.-Do you have any really bad/crazy holiday memories? What are they and are holidays always “crazy” for you? I don't think I have any bad or crazy holiday memories. Most holidays actually seem to go pretty smoothly really. But they always seem crazy until they are over.

4.- Are you going black Friday shopping? Do you ever go out on black Friday? Why do you think they call it that anyway? Have you ever been shopping that day? If you had, you would know why they call it Black Friday. It's like shopping in hell. I may have been shopping on a black Friday before, but nothing comes to mind. I do remember that the last day I worked at Target before having Tabs was black Friday. They stuck me in the electronics department for some reason...god knows why. Soon as the doors opened, it was just like watching a movie where everyone runs from Zombies...people running (literally) in like they had to buy a toaster to save their lives.

5.- Is there anything you really want for X-mas? Not something unobtainable like world peace, but something personal and selfish just for you. Do you think you’ll get it? More books, maybe? I need to finish that Sookie Stackhouse series. I know I am a nerd. Maybe some beef jerky? I don't really want anything. Everyone knows coffee and books make me happy. I am sure I'll get some coffee.

6.- Do you like Christmas Music? If so, why, and if not, why? I love Christmas music!!!! I used to say that when I made my first album it was going to be Christmas music. I don't know what it is about it, but I love it.

7.-Have you ever made a giant penis out of snow? If you don’t have access to snow, would you make one if you could? Would you take stupid pictures of it and put it on Facebook? You know that I have never had that much access to snow...only seen it once and it was just a little and mushy. But, yes...I totally would. One day we will move to Ohio and Carlette will help me make a giant penis out of snow and we will take lewd pictures with it.

8.- How do you feel about stuffing IN the turkey? I mean, you’re basically eating bread crumbs that were stuffed INSIDE of an animals body cavity. Doesn’t that sound gross to you? If you do eat it, how does eating the heart and guts sound too then??! Ok...I admit that I PREFER the stuffing that was inside the turkey. It is more moist and yummy. Heart and guts? If you paid me enough. Remember that time I signed up to eat bull testicles for $1,000.00? I was never picked for that, though.

9.-Have you ever had fried turkey? Have you ever had anything else inappropriate that shouldn’t be fried? (twinkey, broccoli, fried human foot, fried snow penis etc)? Yes, I have had fried turkey. It's nummy (om nom nom). My favorite is smoked turkey, though. No, I have never had anything fried that shouldn't be...but I am southern and would totally eat anything that was fried.

10.-Because it’s thanksgiving, and while it’s really a holiday founded on the exploitation and abuse of American Indians, lets ask: What are you thankful for? This is where I am supposed to say family and friends, right? I am always thankful for those around me. I am actually surrounded by people I love right now in my life. I know there have been times that I didn't always make the best friend choices, but right now I think I am doing pretty well in that area. To be honest, I don't have much REALLY to say I am thankful for right now. I mean, I could say health and all that too...but I guess I am just pretty complacent right now. That's the right word, right? Just going with the flow right now....I am sounding really horrible, aren't I?

you know what I am really grateful for right now? I am grateful that other people are healthy and happy. Just look at the people on my FB and LJ friends lists. People are getting engaged or married. Having beautiful healthy babies all around me. I know some people who have gotten great jobs recently.

I also know people who haven't had it as great or as easy lately. But they have me and that's good enough, right? I mean, if you have some Hollie, life is good.

 God, I haven't been on here in forever. I don't even know what to write about any more. I am all a FaceBook whore now. I spend all freaking day on there. I have crops to harvest, mafias to fight, and fish to care for on there. I even play bingo and poker. Josh hates it. Wants me to do something more constructive. 

I have been reading. I have been reading the House of Night series by P.C. Cast. It's so teeager-ish, but I like it. Even being the the juvenile section, it has alot of talk of blow jobs and sex. On that note, my 12 yr old is also reading them. I have one more book to go in the series. The 6th one comes out early November or late October. I don't know what I'm going to read after that. Although, I have been told to read the Immortal series and the Sookie Stackhouse series (you know you love True Blood).

Anyways. I want to get back to at least reading other people's journals. People have babies growing up and stuff and I am so out of the loop. Love ya all, though. Forgive me for my absence...those of you who even remember me still. he he.

Soon, I am going to have a new endeavor. A website devoted to my master crappy Photoshop skills. It will be similar to PsD, but instead of mistakes, it's just my shitty 'artwork' updated daily (or almost daily). I put up some examples (the ones that weren't innapropriate)  on my Facebook. If you don't have a Facebook or Myspace or haven't added me (you totally should) or can't get to my pictures, you can also look at my  DeviantArt or ask me for examples.

The name of the site will be "Everyone I know is a gonner". (dot com) Because no one I know is safe from my Photoshopping.

What I am asking of you is donations. If you would like to be a part of this awesome new website and have a picture you wouldn't mind being tortured or touched up, please send me what you've got. Email me your pictures at plaidoe@gmail.com. If you have any ideas of what to do with them, let me know. I am looking forward to getting this started and hope that you'll stop by now and then to look at what I've been doing.

So, last night the air in the house went out. I started to notice it getting warm about 3:30 or so. Then it just got worse. It was 80, then 84, then 86...by 7:00 it was 91. Which might be sorta nice outside, but not inside. And it felt like the air was so thick...it was hard to breathe. So my sis in law decided to go stay at her boyfriend's house so she could sleep in some AC. She asked what we were doing and at the time we thought we would sweat it out here and told her that.

About 8:30, Josh decided he didn't want to try to sleep here so we decided to go to his mom's house (an hour away). Since my dad in law is out of town and asked me specifically to watch after his dog, we decided to take Chloe with us. Since Shannon, the sis in law, didn't ask us to watch her dog, she just left assuming we would, and Josh just has to find a way to argue with his sister, He said we are NOT taking her dog, Butchie. I called her up and she said "Why can't you guys just take him with you?". If it were me, I would have just taken him, even if she didn't ask us to watch him, but Josh wasn't having it.

So I handed him the phone and they argued it out and she hung up on him. I understand her point...we told her we were going to stay here...if she had known we were going to leave, she would have taken him with her. However, Josh says that she had originally said she wouldn't take him with her because she just didn't want to get up earlier in the morning to bring him back here. I get his point...that she needs to be more responsible for her own dog. Basically I get both points. So I offered to be the nice guy and drop him off to her on the way to his mom's house.

When I called her back to tell her I could drop him off, she told me "Fuck that...don't do me any favors" and she hung up on me. That's what I got for being the one trying to keep some peace...I get cussed at and hung up on. Whatever. I am sure she'll get over it. But WTF? You know? So I was stressed out last night on the way to Josh's mom's house. But all will be well soon...the AC guy is supposed to be here by noon. And it isn't that bad right now. It says it's 86 in here. We have the wondows open and there's a nice breeze...so it isn't as bad.

Edit: Sis in law came home after work today and acted like nothing happened. So that's good i guess.

in the tub posting from my dsi...so i'm lazy about capitalization and punctuation...just fyi.

i didn't have the money to buy my effexor this week so i've been off of it for 2 or 3 days now. suppose i could've gotten it, but i apparently wasn't careful enough with my money. none the less, i am going through withdrawal...i got the dt's. dizzy, nauseaus, tired, and a few other not so lovely things going on with my body. we sold a few movies, but that didn't give us enough to pay for my meds. but, thank some high power, my mom in law happens to have a few extra dollars this week so she is fronting it so i can get back on the drugs.

other things going on:

my oldest left for texas on tuesday. she freking texted me to say she got there ok...would've killed her to call me i guess.

today, my other two kids played the first season of punky brewster all day. until today i loved that theme song. i think it was the 20th time that threw me over.

i'm not working any more. so that leaves me feeling unhelpful and an unimportant part of my family...whatever. someone has to stay home with the kids, right?

had a weird dream last night. vivid too which is weird for me.

i haven't been reading as much lately. i begged for 'the host' but once i got it, barely read it. also supposed to read 'the power of now' but not really seeing his vision and it's like reading a school book...more ike work.

love the josh more than ever.

i guess that's it. sorry, once again, that i haven't kept up with anyone. i am forever on the facbook, though. feel free to hunt me down there. hollie lemons...in case you didn't know.

thanks for putting up with me.

("You are the most awesomest. You are my favorite wife. For reals. Ludge, Josh")

Ashamed that I loved it. I have been denying it, but I have to admit, I loved it! It helped that actors I liked were in it and the main characters are hot.

 Contrary to what my brother and his wife had planned, my nephew Bryce decided to show up today! So yay! I have a new nephew...and he showed up when HE wanted to!

My sis in law has some condition that causes her pain in her muscles. Labor exacerbates it. She has been having contractions for two days and then her condition started acting up...so they decided it was time. She had a c-section around noon and they are now recovering. He's 8 lbs 4 oz and everyone is doing fine.

Seen today on a church sign:
"No one is poor with a Godly mother"

Sorry...my children are poor.

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I got an email from my mom this morning that my brother's wife is scheduled to be induced to have their new son, Bryce, this coming thursday. Then I got another email that it was changed to a scheduled c-section on the 13th. I am still waiting to hear why the c-section now. She's not even due for another 2-3 weeks.

I guess she's had spotting and some issues (both pregnancies...this is her second), but I don't think that's why they are doing it early. She's been talking about scheduling it and inducing since she got pregnant. I guess some women are doing that now so that all their family can be there...people can schedule their lives around it rather than it being a surprise. If you ask me, the surprise is half of it, you know?

Also, I can't take off work for it, so I will have to either go see them that evening, driving an hour or more to brandon, or wait till the weekend. Either way, I am not taking the kids...I don't feel like listening to her go on about germs and not letting them touch him anyway.

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Josh has this idea for a website. See, I make stupid pictures in photoshop all the time for my sis in law or just to be silly (see gallery). Nothing great...or good for that matter, but he thinks it would be funny to have a website where I put a picture everyday up. We are going to call it EveryoneIKnowIsAGonner.com. I don't know who would go to it everyday, but I think it will be fun. I can take requests too. So if you had a picture of you and your friends and you wanted something done, maybe I could put your heads on monkeys or put you in a strip club. It would be fun, right?

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I went to Dunkin Donuts this morning to get an iced coffee. I swear they put in 3 times too much sugar. It's hard to drink.

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I am trying to not take the ambien at night, but it's so hard. It isn't even like I NEED it, but it's mental...like if I take it I know that I won't have trouble sleeping and I don't even have to try to sleep. You know?

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O.K. That's it I guess. Nothing else.

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Edit: I forgot. My son said the funniest thing to me the other day. I couldn't help but laugh.

"Get me a towel woman"

I have thought alot in the past about surrogacy and if it is something I can do. I am a perfect candidate and could surely use the money.
 
I was looking on Craigslist for random part time job things and ran across an add for egg donation. Apparently I am too old, too fat, and too depressed to donate eggs, but looking into surrogacy, on the site I found, I am perfect. I have had three pregnancies and three births (no miscarriages). All of my children are healthy. I am not a druggie and am not an alcoholic. I do have this liver issue, but I don't think that will be a problem.

I also think that I am in a time in my life where I don't want any more children and would love to be able to give someone else a child. I don't think I would have a real problem with attachment...I will be able to say good bye after the birth.

I really want to talk to Josh about this, but I know that he will think I am crazy. I know that he wil be all NO. But I also know he will read this.

I am serious about this. I would really like him to think about it. I do think it's something that I can do. I would be doing so much help for someone else and I know I can do it. If I am no good at anything else, I am good at pregnany.

Does anyone have any thoughts? Anyone know of anyone else who has gone through the process?

I was bored one day on the way to pick up Josh. So here are some random pictures I took on my way and after I picked him up.
Sorry for the long list of pics. I was gonna put them under a cut, but I can't seem to get any pictures under cuts right lately.






Josh's wallet














Tabs took this picture of me.










Josh's work


Josh made this for me out of a gum wrapper.


My air freshener





Ok, this wasn't from the same day. This was crazy hair day at school.



Generations day at school



His "Ray Hawk" pre paint


After the paint.

Stolen from omonk who stole it from somewhere.

 We want more than anything to move out of my dad in law's house and not have to live with him and my sis in law and my niece. We want our own family back. Our own rules. Our own meals. 

Right now, Josh is making more money than we have ever made together. Plus I am making about an extra 100.00 a week (it's not much, but it counts). Oh, and I am getting about 150.00 every two weeks in child support...pretty steadily...finally. And we are only paying 450.00 in rent. Where the hell is all our money?

Now here's about the breakdown of what we have to pay (per month):
Rent (450)
Storage (80)
Car payment (360)
Car Insurance (132)
Phone (150)
Medicines (325)

Other things have come up...like I just spent 160.00 at the dentist. There are birthdays and holidays. But still. I guess one of our major downfalls is fast food and coffee. We have a habit of just stopping to get something cheap a little too often. But still. Here we are a week before Josh gets paid again (I get paid Friday) and we have no money. How are we ever going to move out if we can't save anything? I mean, we should atleast have the extra that we are not paying in rent, right?

Or last place we paid 900.00 a month to live in. We are only paying 450.00 here. And anyplace I've looked at we won't be paying more than about 900.00. So we should realistically have an extra 500.00 every month, right? Right?

I guess right now I am just edgy too. This morning, my dad in law left a note to me and my sis in law to clean up some in the kitchen and bathroom. I've dealt with his notes for a while now and I just get to it at some point in the day before he gets home...don't stress it any more. However, she has been vacuuming and banging around cleaning for over an hour. Before I locked myself in my bedroom, she was bitching about everything too. I don't get high blood pressure, but it sure feels like I do right now.

I haven't been on LJ much lately. I haven't even been reading to be honest. I tried to read some today, though. I should read more often. There were things that made me happy and proud to read that I would have missed if I didn't come on to LJ today.

Took the kids to the beach on Sunday. Used spray on suntan lotion. The kids were fine mostly (my son got a little sun on his lower back) but I got sunburned. Weird thing is that it's only my left side. It was windy...so maybe it just didn't get sprayed on right. I took some pictures with my awesome phone camera, but they are sitting in my email. I need to get on the lap top and get them off so I can post them. I am currently on Josh's Mac...our computer is plth..and I can't put the pics on it.

P.S.-YEAH to malanai who is going to France!

For those of you who live in, or know about, the Pinellas Park, Largo, St. Pete area...Anyone know of a good place to get a drink and hang out in this area?

My sis in law's birthday is coming up and we want to get together for a few drinks. We usually go to Limey's, but want to try someplace new. They have a porch area that is perfect for us drunks. So, not a bar, per se, but someplace that will handle like 10 people hanging out together and getting drunk.

Thanks!

Stolen from perpetuallydry